On October 8th, 2011, I will no longer be Katie McNemar.
I will take vows before God and will from that moment on be Katie Alicea.
When I look in the mirror, I see Katie McNemar. I’ve been Katie McNemar all my life. I introduce myself as Katie McNemar. I sign my checks (the two times a year I actually still write checks) as Katie McNemar. All the bad things I’ve done, and all the good things I’ve done have all been under this name. The last name of McNemar is very special to me.
To give up my last name is something I take very seriously. This is so much more than a name change. I am changing my identity.
The Katie I am now will cease to exist the day I say my vows to Tony. This change won’t be as abrupt as it sounds. God has been walking me towards this moment all my life. He is the Father walking me down the aisle to my husband. This walk has been thirty years in the making, which means He and I have had lots of time to prepare for this moment. During this journey down the aisle I have changed so many times that I’ve lost track, but the moment say my vows to Tony that will be a change I’ve never experienced before. At that moment something very mysterious and beautiful will happen. Tony and I will no longer be two totally separate individuals. We will become one person. Our very souls will be knit together.
Some people may think that it’s a weak person that would give up their life and their name in order to marry another imperfect mortal. But I tell you, it takes a stronger person to willingly, selflessly die to themselves every day just for the chance to walk beside one of God’s precious, beautiful children. Just for the chance to make them smile every day. Just for the chance to see them through God’s eyes. Just for the chance to hold them up when they are weak. Just for the chance to wake up next to the person that knows you better than you know yourself. Just for the chance to hold them as their heart breaks. Just for the chance to see their dreams come true. Just for the chance to kiss and hold them at the end of a hard day. Just for the chance to see all that you have sacrificed given back to you ten fold by a God that has more thoughts for you than the sands on the beaches. I am willing to sacrifice everything to marry Tony. I consider it a privilege. Not because Tony’s perfect, but because God’s will is.
It’s easier to let go of a name when you know that it’s not your name that defines who you are. No matter what name I go by, I will forever be a child of the God that loves me so much that He gave up His life to save me. A rose by any other name, would most definitely smell as sweet.
The Future Mrs. Alicea
“Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, and, above all, those who live without love.” – Albus Dumbledore
Katie is a 30-year-old rambler, writer, giggler, and Jesus chaser. Born and raised in the rolling hills of West Virginia, she is a country girl at heart. She will be married to the love of her life, Tony Alicea, and will live happily-ever-after in Southern Florida. She blogs at The Dailies.